god i just need to write this—you guys probably won’t even take the time to fucking READ it, but i need to get this out into the open

my best friend wants to commit suicide. she’s already attempted to do so, but fortunately, another friend was able to stop her. she hasn’t even graduated from high school yet (she is a senior this year). she is beautiful beyond description, kind, intelligent, and exquisitely talented. life has SO MUCH in store for her—she has a full scholarship to her first choice college in addition to being accepted into their honors program, and she can pretty much get a full ride to any fucking college she pleases. her dream is to be a composer and conductor as well as a band director, and she genuinely loves music SO much it just radiates off of her. she consistently talks about hating life and wanting to “punch cats” and sings songs about how much she loathes people.
i don’t know what to do. she has so much ahead of her, but she doesn’t think the rest of her life is worth it.
yet there is so little that the people who care about her can do—we can provide some comfort, soothing words, give her all our love and companionship, but we are not fucking genies or anything. in the end, it is her personal journey and hers alone. she is the only one who can look within herself and make herself decide between trying to build herself up again or ending her own life.
i just don’t know what i’d do without her.